I recently meet Steve (fake name). First, I don't really be touched by him. I think he was funny but a little bit older than me. But, I had to see him more than I thought and I begin to think that he was quite cute and more young. He was really friendly with me and I think he start to try to pick me up . We discussed a lot about our life and we laughed a lot. He said that we had quite the same age but I was thinking he was engaged. Yep I tracked him on Facebook and find his profile so I see a girl was engaged with him. But one day he broke his arm and he tell me how he did that, he was dancing with friends and fall like a dumb. I laughed and he says that he had pain and nobody to help him. Recently, he asked me if one day I will want to have child and I didn't tell the truth. I said like I was all the time with children I saw how they are so maybe one day but not now. In reality, my highest desire is to raise a child with a good father. I play the good friend and the funny girl but I really start to have a cruch on him. He is not a top model but in my eyes he look like one. I love his smile, his perfume and when he look at me in the eyes. Like we are all the time alone in a room when I meet him, I could tell him what I feel for him but I'm too scared.
To tell you all the story, in the university I was attracted by a guy and I didn't want to tell him. One day, he said me I was the greatest girl he ever met and one day I was just his friend. A girl I knew, say to him that I was in love with him. What he didn't know, was that he already broke my heart. I saw him one time date a friend of mine . So when he knew the truth he said he was sorry and he really appreciate me but I was just his friend. Time past and we were still friend, doing party together, dancing together, him telling me secrets in my ears like a couple. In fact he always played trying to pick me up but he didn't want to date me. One day I cry in his arms saying that he make this situation and that he had to say to me what he really feel for me and he said "we are just friends nothing more" so I get drunk and he pick up an other girl in front of my eyes. Yes he was an asshole.
So maybe you understand more why I don't want to tell to Steve what I feel. I go to Australia in one month so I don't know if I ever see him again. But I think for me and my mind I will think about telling him.
What do YOU think ????
See ya,
Mémé
